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I shouldn't have to miss you when you live a fifth of a mile away.
"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe

8th Jul, 2010

I have to get this off my chest.
Lj, because no one is here anymore.

FUCK YOU. MMK?
You have NO IDEA what this is like. I don't give a shit that he's been gone a day/week/month. YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA what it is like to have no idea if/when you will see him again. You have no idea what it's like to finally think you will see him again, only to have it ripped away. twice.
FUCK YOU.
You have no idea what it means to miss someone this much. No, skype does not make everything better. Phone calls are great, but they are NOTHING.
You have no idea what it's like to know his parents will do anything they can to keep you away. They hate you so much, they would rather hurt him than just get over it.

I don't want to hear about how you miss him after an hour. you get no pity from me.
Go fuck yourself.


"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe

8th May, 2010

The hardest part is sleeping alone
"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe

4th May, 2010

This is going to be the first entry entry I've made in a long time.

As I said in my last post, I am so incredibly terrified that Friday was the last time I'll ever be able to hug and kiss him.
I love him so much, if he doesn't come back I don't know what I'll do. I feel sick just thinking about it. How do you know if he's "the one"?
I love him. I feel like nothing could get me when he's with me. I feel safe, warm, and happy. The best part of my day is seeing him. I want to take care of him. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I can't even imagine being without him. I want him to be my husband and the father of my children.
The past few days have been harder than I could've ever imagined, and I have another 117 to go. At least.
He said if he couldn't come back to school, he wants to move up here. It's relieving to me. At the same time, his mother would NEVER forgive me.

I don't even know.
I feel...heartbroken?
I don't even know.
I'm just getting to the point where I just want to cry whenever I see people hug or kiss.
It just hurts so bad.
"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe

3rd May, 2010

I am so incredibly terrified that that was the last time I'll ever see him.
"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe
"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe
"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe

5th Apr, 2010

Say the person you're thinking about walks up to you and hugs you, you say?
hi :D

Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
yes

When was the last time you cried?
today. Happy tears.
"Sei piu bella che i fiori di primavera"
<333

Did you believe that boys / girls had cooties?
no

Does anyone disgust you?
sure

Do you want something to change in the next month?
yes :/

Has anyone told you they don't ever wanna lose you?
yes

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend / girlfriend every week?
no

Have you ever been lied to by somebody you thought wouldn't lie to you?
yes

Do you miss anyone?
nah

Is your life falling apart or coming together?
coming together

Has a friendship ended recently? Why?
nah

Do you miss anyone in your life?
no

How many of the same sex do you trust?
2

So, you have brown eyes?
no

Have you ever broken a bone?
no

Do you honestly have feelings for someone at the moment?
Oh yus

Are you ticklish?
mmhmm

When was the last time you talked to your number 1 on top friends?
..livejournal

What are you wearing on your feet?
nothing

Are you a forgiving person?
yes

Is your hair longer than your shoulders?
no

Do you get distracted easily?
yes

If someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say?
not sure

Did you mean "I love you" when you said it last?
yep

Is there someone who can always make you smile?
several

Would you rather go to Canada or California on vacation?
Cali

Do you want to get married?
I do

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants?
Dress

Last person you talked to on the phone?
Anthony

Last person you texted?
Kara

Last person to text you?
Kara

Last person that told you a secret?
Anthony

What was the last thing you watched on TV?
The Soup

So, nearest thing to you that's your favorite color?
a paper

Are you afraid to grow up?
no

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
yes

If your girlfriend / boyfriend broke up with you tonight, what would you do?
I don't even know

Who was the last person you had a deep, meaningful conversation with?
Anthony

Are you an emotional person?
sometimes

Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
no

When angry, do you get loud or quiet?
quiet

Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
his arms

Do you break down when getting yelled at?
only if it's my dad

Do you know anyone that wants you dead?
no

Do you believe that regrets are lessons learned?
no

Are you always in a hurry?
no

Are you generally a happy person?
yep

Do you prefer Skittles or Starbursts?
starbursts

Are you a big fan of snowstorms or thunderstorms?
mmhmm

What color shirt are you wearing?
brown and white

Has anyone recently told you something you didn't want to hear?
no

Has anyone recently disappointed you?
no

Anything good happening tomorrow?
no

Have you ever felt like someone of the opposite sex truly cared about you?
yep

Do you regret doing something today?
no

Do you own a desktop or a laptop?
both

Would you rather kiss someone 5 years older or 5 years younger?
I have someone I kiss a few months older, I don't need another 

What was the last thing you burnt yourself on?
plate

Gummy bears or gummy worms?
bears

Are you excited for the future?
yep

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Anthony's

Whose bed will you sleep in tonight?
Anthony's

When was the last time you were in a car with someone other than family?
Sunday?

How many piercings do you have?
ears

What was the last thing you ate?
chocolate

Are any of your friends taller than you?
most

Do you want to see somebody right now?
nah

Do you have a bad temper?
no

What is your favorite thing that is green?
the grass

Pick a word that starts with the first letter in your first name.
Random

What did you order the last time you had fast food?
no idea

Do you like fortune cookies?
depends

What color are your pants right now? What kind of pants are they?
none. dress.

What can you hear right now?
Vanilla Twilight

Who is in the room with you and what are they doing?
Anthony, he's playing a game

What color is your shampoo?
green

Do you prefer fat or skinny markers?
I don't use markers

What is your pet's name?
Buster, Lilly

What were you doing the last time you were in the bathroom?
peeing

Do you have a charm on your cell phone?
no

Is there a song that completely gets on your nerves?
mmhmm

What month is it?
April

Do you want any ex's back?
no

Do you miss your past?
no

Who do you have texts from in your inbox?
several people

How many girlfriends/ boyfriends have you had in 2010?
1

Do you know what your name would have been if you were opposite sex?
Nathan

Have you ever talked on the phone in the shower or bathtub?
yes

Was today a good day?
sure

What are you waiting for?
nothing

What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleep

What are you wearing right now?
A dress

What should you be doing right now?
writing a paper

What was the last thing you saw on TV?
The Soup

Did anything bad happen to you in September?
no?

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
in class

Are promises important to you?
yes

Are you mad at anyone right now?
no

What are you craving at the moment?
nothing

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?
no

Is it possible to be single and happy?
yes

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
in the next few minutes

Are you logged onto facebook?
no

I bet you miss somebody right now?
no

Are you feeling guilty about anything right now?
no

Where will you be in 3 hours?
with Chris :D

Did the last person you kiss have a tattoo?
no

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yes

What color are your eyes?
Green

Do you enjoy going through a car wash?
no

Do you like the snow?
yes

Is your bed comfortable?
Anthony's is. :D

What's the first thing that pops into your head when you think of last summer?
SBUX

Which did you discover first, Myspace or Facebook?
myspace

Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn't do?
no

Last thing you said aloud?
no idea what you're talking about

Are you afraid to grow up?
no

Do you have a step-parent?
no

Do you want to see somebody right now?
nah. I'm content.

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party?
party

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Anthony

What movie are you most excited to see?
HP

When is the next time you will see your best friend?
Tonight

Do you still live with your parents?
no

What's your favorite color?
Yellow

Do you find smoking unattractive?
yes

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Today

Would you prefer to date someone taller, shorter, or the same height as you?
taller

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
morning

What's so special about what you're wearing?
I got it in NYC

Be honest; are you dating the last person who texted you?
nope

Do you seek approval from your friends before going out with someone?
no

How many people do you have 'a thing' for right now?
just the one. I lurve him. 

Does the last person you held hands with, mean a lot?
oh yeah

Do you regret dating anyone you dated?
no

Could you go a day without eating?
yes

What color shirt are you wearing?
dress. Brown and white

Do you think you will be in a relationship 1 month from now?
yes

Are you ticklish?
I am

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
I do

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
talk

Was your last kiss a mistake?
no

Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?
yes

Ever talked to someone that was drunk?
yes

Did you have a dream last night?
yes

Do you trust people easily?
very

Are you easily scared by horror movies?
yes

Do you still turn to your parents for advice or comfort?
yes

Are you taller than 5'5"?
no

What were you doing at 9 this morning?
in class

Do you like to argue?
nah

Have you ever felt replaced?
yes

What do you do when you have a bad day?
hug it out

Do you even KNOW how to do the laundry?
yes

When's the last time you had a headache?
this morning

Ever kiss a redhead?
I think so?

Have you ever liked/been in love with someone older than you?
yes

How are you feeling right now?
gurd

Is it possible to be single and happy?
...repeating questions.

Is there anyone you trust even though you should not?
nah

Are you talking to someone while doing this?
no

If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?
Not today. But I have him.

When was the last time you were really stressed?
earlier today

Do you follow your head more or your heart?
head

When is the next time you will kiss someone?
soon

Do you think that you will be married within ten years?
yep

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?
yep

Ever heard the saying "to get over someone, get under someone else?"
I have. haha

Would you rather have long or short hair?
whatever

Do you want your last ex to be happy, even if it means not being with you?
Absolutely

Would you say your into anyone right now?
I would

This time last year, what was your relationship status?
single 

Did you talk to the person you like today?
I did.

Whats the 40th text in your inbox say, from who and what time?
"straight" -Chris

Who sits beside you in math class
Besima

Think back to the last person you kissed, did you ever kiss them in a vehicle?
I have

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
Aaron? no

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
nah

Name one person you wish you could fix things with, and why?
no one. I'm good.

Having sex ruins relationships, right?
nope

Was this summer a good one?
it was

Would you rather get a new puppy or a new car?
PUPPY

If your ex said they hated you, what would you say?
..why?

"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe

12th Mar, 2010

Sunday can NOT come soon enough.

I feel like I'm gonna be sick.
"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe

7th Mar, 2010

I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?"
“The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”
~Marilyn Monroe

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